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A lonely night without you..
as I hear the romantic songs of long lost lovelorners.. only your face is framed ever so clearly in front of me.

I am your turtle dove and I shall wait for thou for a thousand years.. till the stars fall from the sky..I will never prove false to you my dear.

The nights
The breeze
The sound of the seas
The sands on the shore
are endless but I love you more.

K

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today, I learn’t to laugh a little and take life easy. When the feeling arises, that life is bullying you or taunting you. Sometimes the best way, is to let it enter your mind one way and slip out the other. I enjoyed the small things that kept me happy throughout the day and sent me smiling to sleep.

A much desired poem being recited on my music player, just at that moment when I was feeling low, it was as if the player sensed my mood!

Giving up a seat to a person who needed it more and getting the biggest toothless grin ever. Just washed a wave happiness all over me!

Walking back home versus taking the sliced-bread packed bus. It gave me a chance to smell the flowers, feel the breeze and walk to my own beat and rhythm. I even skipped to a song, despite the strange but amused and “hey, wish I had the guts to do that!” looks I received from fellow pedestrians.

Coming home, dropping my belongings and rushing to the swimming pool. Undisturbed blue water. Unearthly silences. Just the slight current. The silence. my heartbeat, and me. I am aware of my entire existence then as I swim through the azure blue water…

Returning home to meet my dear amma and daddy, and having an hour of rambling humor. Taking amma’s case while she continues to bully yet pamper daddy at the same time..my parents teach me everyday, the meaning of unconditionally expressed love.

My day cannot be more blessed than this one. Thank you God, for this day and for the hope of tomorrow.

For this day, please accept my humble offering

a sincere prayer never ceases to amaze me. it teaches you to not build expectations on the outcome, but to enjoy the journey with peace of mind, with all honesty and with the motivation to just have the task well done. the results will turn out positive without an iota of a doubt.

i have begun to believe in prayer, but not because of the success that life has begun to taste, but for that serene state of mind, that washes over me, after prayer. even the best paid job or the most expensive object or a bedazzling jewel cannot buy because, it’s truly priceless, the power of prayer.

my prayer is simple – “sarvejana, sukhino bhavantu”

you are my rock, daddy
you are my rock, amma
you are my rock, kutty
you are my rock, abhi

for without you, I would be like the meandering stream, going aimlessly without any strength or power, mingling with the endless sea. thanks for being there, here and everywhere with me. for without any of you, I would be dust.

molten sapphire and pink coral, laced with liquid gold and sparkling diamonds…the sky that day, lo and behold was my favorite painting of God, yet.

shattered dreams and broken sky, silenced thunder singing by…the heavens are weeping endlessly, God, what in this goddamned world has made you cry? Come, rest on my shoulder. Sometimes even God needs a friend.

I’ve learn’t to start living
I’ve learn’t to keep smiling
I live for the moment
I live for the day no matter how dark the skies are

I have felt joy and pain
two sides of the coin that keeps spinning
life is made of white and black and millions of shades of grey

I have learn’t to keep living without tears
I realize who I call my own and who calls me theirs
I have started to listen to my heart
I have also learn’t when to calm it down

I have learn’t to let go and laugh things off
I have learn’t never to see someone’s tears and scoff
I’ve learned to listen and reflect
I hug freely without judgement and without expectation

It took till now but I’ve started living from today

is all I live for. Is all that keeps me from breaking down completely. That one phone call from you Amma.

The love from your voice sinks into my ear and into my heart just calming me down no matter what I am going through. I wait for that moment, through all the people I do not know and do not care for even an ounce as I do for you, I wait for that ring. I wait for tomorrow. For your call.

Thank you. Thank you for everything.